be careful what you pray for

you just might get it! this happened to me, and when something came my way to help me the way i asked to be helped i fought it tooth and nail!
yesterday morning while praying i felt the need to confess my abuse of my computer time- it seems my computer is on all day. so i asked the Lord to help me to break this addiction, so that i can accomplish the things that i need to and spend time with my kids. amen. well, i told ash that i would help her with her crop and i did, but was having intermitent internet droppings throughout the 2 hours i was in the chatroom...soon after the crop was over i lost internet altogether. nothing i did made it come back. sometimes when this happens i could wiggle or jiggle a cord on the modem, or reset the whole thing to get back to the www. not this time. so i turned off my computer for the rest of the day. tried again at night- still nothing so i (hold onto your chairs ladies) went to bed early!!! and i must admit, my tired body needed that cause i think i might have been asleep before my head even touched the pillow! so that was good. this morning however was not so good. i could not get onto the internet for nothin! i sat here and tried everything i could and was starting to get mad!! now i'm starting to think it may be the cable company that has the problem. so i call up taina, my neighbor to see if her internet is working, and of course it is. i just had to laugh at that point because being upset about it was not going to get me anywhere. i had told her how i had just prayed for help in not spending so much time on the computer. but hey! i didn't mean i wanted to go cold turkey!! she teased me about fighting God's will, but isn't that the way of it? we pray and we ask for things but expect them on OUR terms. and then when things don't go the way WE think it should, we fight it. He gives us what we need in a way that HE knows is best for us- i.e with me, what other way am i going to not be on the computer unless i can't chat, blog, or surf the internet? He knows best!! this has certainly shown me that i really do need to cut back. i spend almost the entire day on the computer. i turn it on when i get up in the morning and every spare moment i have is spent on it. well, i recycled power again and got the internet back the latter part of this morning. and to day, like so many other days, it seems lately i only break away to help the kids with schoolwork, and to make breakfast and lunch. oh, it starts out with me just checking my emails. oh, that will only take about 5 mins, and then i'll do such and such(something that needs doing) well, those emails sometimes have links that take me away from the email site, then one thing leads to another...and i have been sitting at the computer for 2 hours! then i need to check in over at sbb. read over the forums and check the gallery to try to make a few comments...should only take about 20 mins...nope! another hour!! and then here's the killer and i don't know why i do this during the day at all, but i have to go down my blog list. i have a blog list so long that i have them all in my favorites in their own folder called blogs! oh wow! i just counted 78! isn't that ridiculously crazy? i don't comment on them all, but these are the ones i check daily! i'm embarrassed to even admit that! i DO need my internet taken away!! i really have a hard time managing my time on my computer, cause it's not bad enough that i am on it all day, but all night as well...something's gotta give. my time during the day should be for my kids and running our home. my computer time should start at night, but be off by a decent time. i think for me, midnight is good.
who wants to hold me accountable?