Time to Let Go

okay, i gave in! i hired someone to come clean my house. jay had been on me for months to hire someone, but i wouldn't. i said i could keep up with the kids, homeschooling, laundry, cooking, and the cleaning myself. i just kept telling myself that i could do it all and that i didn't need anyone's help. well, now i have come to the realization that i do need help. i can not do it all. so she came in and cleaned for 4 hours straight. she was able to get to the things that i just could not, and i felt bad about it at first...why couldn't i do that? but then it hit me. when she is here, to clean is her job, it's her only focus and she can do it with little to no distractions. that is not true for me. i can only get bits and pieces done at a time and then the room is only clean for 5 mins afterwards! i didn't know how to act, knowing she was coming so i was running around the house trying to clean, so she could do that very thing! everything looked so nice when she finished, it was so freeing to have every room in the house clean all at the same time! very relaxing to me, and the children were pleased also. so i think this will continue bi-weekly for a while...we'll see how it goes!