Trusting God

sometimes, i wonder what my life would have been like if i hadn't gotten pregnant at 19.  if i hadn't married the man i did, although he is pretty wonderful and i love him more than anything.  what if i had finished college and gotten a degree or two, or three?  what kind of life would i have now if i had never left my hometown?  i don't wonder about these things much, but sometimes i do...wonder.  does that mean that i wish i had a different life than the one that i have now?  no, i don't think so, because i am happy, i do have a blessed life.  my choices and actions were what they should have been.  but... i wonder more than anything else if i am supposed to be doing more with my life than i am.  should i go on a missions trip?  should i learn more and pursue photography?  should i put the rest of my kids in school?  and get a job?  go back to school?  is there anything i should be doing that i'm not?  these questions run a muck in my head and weigh me down because if i am to be completely honest with myself, i really shouldn't be taking on anything else.  when i get ahead of myself (doing things before i'm ready) i get really stressed out and i hate that feeling.  my husband and my kids hate it as well because they are affected too.

instead of letting my mind go crazy with these thoughts i need to treasure every moment and trust that i am exactly where God wants me to be.  trust that i have everything i need right now, and that He will provide everything i need for tomorrow as well.  
it's time to stop wondering and trust.

Matthew 6:25-27 says:
²⁵ “therefore i tell you, do not worry about your life, what you will eat or drink; or about your body, what you will wear. is not life more than food, and the body more than clothes? ²⁶ look at the birds of the air; they do not sow or reap or store away in barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. are you not much more valuable than they? ²⁷ can any one of you by worrying add a single hour to your life?

trust.