Recital Day

today was the girl's recital and it was both exciting and emotional at the same time. it started at 12, and the girls were supposed to be there an hour before so i got them there at 10:30. for some reason this year i didn't feel as rushed as i had in previous years. i stood in line for an hour, but it wasn't bad, i think because i was expecting it. i had my lap tickets for carter and deacon this time, and i guess i made a face at the lady at the door when she asked for it- this was a huge issue for me last year-she then explained to me why they needed it. it's so they can do a head count for the fire department. makes sense. had this been explained to me last year, i wouldn't have gotten so mad. we got good seats, and i'm thinking, so what everything is going smoothly, we are still done with this place. then the lights went down and the show began... this was to be their last performance and the girls went out with a bang! sitting there watching them on stage made me want to weep- i am so proud of my girls! devyn had her little solo in the spotlight. she really does love it, and she really knows her dances. camryn was fabulous and her tap dancing looked great! i can tell she has learned a lot over this last year!
now comes the sad part. before leaving, devyn asked if she could go and say goodbye to her teacher. i said sure and thought she would say some cutesy goodbye and we would be gone FOREVER!!!!! but a couple of minutes went by and she had not returned and i did not see her when the small crowd that had been standing around her disbursed. she had gone back inside the building on a mission to find marissa- her teacher from last year. marissa was devyn's first ballet teacher and she made it sooooo much fun for devyn and devyn adored her. last summer marissa went away to college and devyn got a new teacher in the fall, but you could tell she missed marissa. well, when i found devyn marissa was carrying her and devyn was clinched to her tight. she was sobbing so hard and did not want to let marissa go. since marissa comes back during the summer to help with recital, she told devyn that this was not goodbye and that she would see her at the next recital. i sorrowfully informed her that this was devyn's last recital and that she would not be returning to dance. ( i felt awful!!!) then marissa started to get teary.
then i got all teary. and devyn was still crying.
now, i am faced with a hard decision. devyn wants to return to dancing in the fall. i had a bad experience with this dance company this year, and everything is so dang expensive i have no reason to want to go back except dance is a part of devyn. she is one of those hyper girls who can't sit still, so she dances. and she is darn good at it. i know if she never stepped foot in another dance studio again, she might get over it, but, what if i'm making a huge mistake by not letting her "hone her craft" so to speak.
oiy!